Bitachon

Hashem put me into a terrible and UNTENABLE situation. I (thought I) trusted Hashem fully to send me the salvation I need. He didn't. I felt so rejected and devastated. For years I davened, said, Tehillim, got brachos, did chessed, did every hishtadlus I could think of, etc, and had to conclude that those things didn't bring the yeshua I needed. There are many sources which say that if a person truly trusts them Hashem will come through for them. It seems like my only hope, but if my bitachon has already been rejected, how can I identify what went wrong and what I have to change? I really can't "just accept it". I can't live this way. I feel like Hashem is waiting for me to do something but I don't know what. I feel so helpless and hopeless. How can I trust hashem in a way that he will answer me?

Shalom!

Thank you for your question.

First of all, please know that nothing is in vain. No mitzvah, prayer, or good deed is ever wasted.

G-d hears all prayers. And He answers all prayers. Just sometimes, the answer is “no.”

Yes, Judaism teaches that indeed we sometimes just have to “accept” what has come our way. Our sages teach us that even things that appear to be negative are ultimately for the good, and sometimes, blessings in disguise.

Your job is to keep on doing all the mitzvot, praying, chessed, and all the good things that you seem to have been doing. Hopefully the future will bring you events and experiences that are openly positive and rewarding.

With best wishes for the New Year.