Encouragement

Hello Rabbi and Blessings to you and your family. I am 30 years old, I’m having financial troubles at the moment and family issues with my father and I have a child on the way (5 months pregnant now, we are not married. We tried a while back when I had a job and things didn’t fall through because of a miscarriage). I’ve never really had a good relationship with my Dad but I respect my Father. It’s a difficult relationship because he’s always very harsh with his words. And from his mouth he doesn’t want nothing to do with religion which hurts me. My Mother is not in the picture for over 30 years until recently. Literally a month ago she calls me saying she wants to be in my life and I say Okay; I love my Mother even if I don’t know her. I left my old job because of the miscarriage (that day I left early from work and my fiancé was bleeding terribly in the bathroom and she pasted out in the hospital) one of the most horrific things I’ve experienced. My father and my relationship isn’t there but by blood. I love my Father as there’s certain things that I know that most people will never experience with theirs yet I don’t see light in his eyes anymore. Idk what to do.. I need a job, and if this child is coming may it be a good one where I can support her, the child, move out of my Fathers house. Etc. Pray for me to get a Good job one that I enjoy and is able to provide for me and my family. I’m venting as I don’t have someone to vent too.

As I read your letter my heart goes out for you, and you should know in Judism we say every thing is difficult in the begining, and now you are starting to build a family dont give up! you got your whole life ahead of you with so much potential, try your best and may Hashem help you. I pray for your succsess.